Posts tagged with "aboutme"
I’ve been definitely living the title the last couple of days. I’ve been staying with the guy I’m dating/with/whatever and his son. He just went to his sister’s birthday party (we’re not official enough for me to go to family gatherings, which I’m totally cool with) so I’m at his house, cleaning, doing laundry, etc. and blaring my music. I’ve been taking care of his son with him, feeding him, changing him, playing with him, etc and I really like the mommy role, contrary to what I’ve said before. We went to Home Depot earlier and I was pushing N. around in the buggy and I got a few warm smiles from total strangers.
I’ve never felt that before, it’s pretty awesome. N. isn’t mine, obviously, but I like helping out when it comes to him and even the housework.
Anyway! sorry I haven’t been posting much! I promise, after I clean, I’ll get back on it!
My print giveaway ends tomorrow at 9pm EST!
get your final reblogs in and to everyone who’s entered, thank you so much, you all are the absolute best! I’m sure I’ll be doing more giveaways soon, especially for those of you in DFW!
played around in photoshop for a bit
made myself a new banner. still deciding if I like it or not.
it’s amazing how music can motivate you.
currently jamming Day N Night - Kid Cudi.
so fucking pissed off.
our paychecks were supposed to come in yesterday afternoon and guess what? they didn’t! so now I have no phone and our electricity will be shut off on Monday!
my job is awesome!!
I went on a date tonight.
It was totally last minute and, by far, the best date I’ve been on in a while. We didn’t do anything spectacular but the conversations was flawless. It’s kinda crazy how much I have in common with this guy O.o he’s 25 and he told me he was a bit turned off that i’m only 20 but he said I’m nothing like what he expected (maturity wise) and that I’m on the same level as him. I don’t know where this’ll go so, we’ll see! :)
as soon as I see a picture from Warped Tour, I get jealous/frustrated.
simply because I want to tour. it’s my ultimate goal. once I tour, I’ll be happy.
I talked to my friend Blake about it and he said I’d really love it, despite not getting to shower as often as I’d like. I have an idea to do a documentary style ‘movie’ of what it’s like to tour. I want to record everything. the laughs, the fights, the van breakdowns, the inside jokes, the pranks, everything.
one day, I’m going to make this happen.
I’m too determined to give this up.
pretty soon, my photos will be seen on liveandwrecked.com
I got to see all the animals today :)
Bella (my beagle) and Pumbaa (our pug) and all our horses! Dash For Cats, one of our stallions was being such a big baby today. this might sound weird but, horses DO give hugs and Dash was giving them out like a pedo gives out candy. I can’t begin to explain how much I love all the animals at the ranch, I love taking my friends out there and showing them what I grew up around. ugh, my grandpa is turning 80 soon, I need to spend more time with him before it’s too late.
remember to feel real.
lately, I’ve been telling myself ‘you don’t need to be in a relationship to be happy.’ and, for the most part, it’s true. but then there are times when I could really use a shoulder to cry on or just someone there in general. my friends are the best, don’t get me wrong. but it’s not the same. I miss feeling wanted. I want those butterflies again, they’re the best feeling in the whole world. It seems like at one point in my life, dating wasn’t hard. It wasn’t easy, but it wasn’t like it is now. Now it’s like I’m a walking sign that says ‘DON’T TALK TO ME’ or something. I don’t get it. I see some of my friends in really cute, lasting relationships and I can’t help but think I’m defective or something.
I’m finally at the point where I can look through my ex fiance’s pictures and not be sad. even seeing photos of us together doesn’t make me miss him. I used to cry myself to sleep saying ‘if only I still had him, things would be better.’ but I know that’s not the truth. He’d still be 5,000 miles away and I’d still be miserable, missing him more and more every day. I want so much to be in a relationship again but I know looking for it won’t end well.
I’m tempted to make a list of the things I’m looking for and not settle for anything less. Wait, no. Bad idea. I will never find the perfect one, as much as I’d like to. (and I know I’m not the only one.)
Ugh, I have no clue where I’m going with this. I needed to rant. There is SO. MUCH. I want to say but I’d have to name names and I’m not about to do that.
my coworker said some insults today that I can’t say I’ve ever heard.
I started CRACKING UP as soon as she said them.
- two-eyed twat waffle!
- lilly-raping bucket fucker!
I was laughing so hard I accidentally said ‘lilly-raping bucket fuckle’ so that’s my version.
I grabbed an application from the security guards today, hopefully I’ll get on because my current job sucks for SO. MANY. REASONS. and I’d like to have an actual career. all the guards are so nice, too! so please keep your fingers crossed that I get this!